BeautifullyBroken

I see the stars in the sky, And I wonder...... How can You know me? How can You love me? How can You have been with me? I see the stars  And I wonder What makes me so special that You’d want to know me? Why would You love me? Why would You want to stay with me? I see the stars  I am so small Why do I matter? Why am I here? But,  You still love me You still want me to love you To worship You To love others   You are there for me,  in the stars In my kids,  In a song that speaks to me In a gentle breeze In the sunset You are there  You love me Unconditionally.   Always  With grace  Grace more than every star in the sky You love me more than the stars  All the stars in the sky 🌟 ⭐️ 🌟 ⭐️ 🌟 ⭐️ 🌟 ⭐️ 🌟 ⭐️ 🌟 

I was practicing this song today,  Thy Will  ,and ended up in tears. I'm not quite sure how this happened, exactly why it was so upsetting to me. I struggle daily with submitting my life completely to the Lord, and saying the phrase, "Thy will be done," and submission go hand in hand. This is reflected in Romans 12:2. Do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing, and perfect will.   So, this raises a couple questions, "Why is this so hard for me?" and "Why did it upset me so?" "Transforming my mind" basically to me means a huge attitude check. Am I following what God wants me to? Or, am I following my human instinct? Am I transforming into a Jesus follower? Or, am I going after "worldly" desires? Is my heart following God's desires? Or, am I following what feels good at the moment? Jesus says

I thought I'd share this with everyone. I wrote this one of those nights I was awake for hours in the middle of the night. That's usually when my mind works the best! It was before Easter and I started thinking about how people must've felt watching Jesus' crucifixion . So, this is wrote from the point of view of people , then God, then Jesus in Heaven. I've never actually wrote a poem before, so this has been a learning experience! Let me know what you think! How it must’ve felt  To watch you suffer To know that you came to save me Yet died so violently. How it must’ve felt  To see you hurting Knowing there was nothing I could do Knowing I should be there, too How it must’ve felt When you drew your final breath Knowing what I’ve done Instantly feeling regret How it must’ve felt To have to turn away To not watch my son Bear all the pain How You must feel  watching us sin  Loving us more than life But giving up w