BeautifullyBroken

So, I've took a little blogging vacation. Not that I wanted to, but I kind of decided that if I couldn't be positive, then I wasn't doing what God had intended me to do with my writing. This has been an eye opening, slap in the face kind of month or so.  Remember the roller coaster I have talked about getting off so many, many times? Well, again, I dipped low. I would hazard to say that it might have been the lowest I had ever been. Sometimes though, you have to hit that low point, the point where all you have is God. (Someone, who thinks they are pretty wise, has said this more then once!Haha!)  Much to say, struggling is an everyday process for me to overcome. But, I see hope, maybe even glimpses of peace in my life. I start to get extremely worried when I see this, or let myself feel it, because then I worry so much about what "might" happen next. What is going to happen that I'm going to make the wrong decision? Or, what is going to happen that will

When do you just give in? I mean completely give in? When do you say "I surrender all" and really follow through and mean it. When do you say, "I'm sorry God, I will follow you now and forever." When do you stop being scared to death of the change that has to happen in your life? When do just jump in with both feet and stop wading in the shallow end? When do you take that leap of faith? When do you fully and completely trust God with everything? When does this scared feeling go away? When are you going to crave peace and hope more than being stuck in your old ways? What would happen if you did just give in? Why do you continue to struggle? Why are you on this path of tug of war with God? GIVE IN!!!! STOP Just getting your feet wet and dabbling in the shallow end!