Temptation

1 Corinthians 10:13        No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so you can endure it.

This verse has been on my mind for quite a while now. It’s probably because one night it really hit home for me. I made a stupid mistake and didn’t take my way out. The devil caught me, grabbed a hold, leading me to some stupid mistakes. Because, I’m the way I am, I tend to dwell on these mistakes. Again, the devil.

I have an addictive personality, according to my best friend. This is a huge problem for me. Basically, if something feels good, I am addicted to it. For instance, Cherry Pepsi! I love Wild Cherry Pepsi. I was addicted to it. I usually only had one bottle a day, but it was nothing for me. The taste was so awesome; I felt it helped me through everything, from a rough morning, to just keeping me awake in the afternoon. Well, a couple months ago, I challenged my Pastor to stop drinking Monsters, (he was probably drinking maybe 4 a day). So, I opened my big mouth and said, “I’ll stop Pepsi, if you’ll stop Monster’s.” The first month was hard! I felt like someone took away my favorite blankie. I struggled, and then a couple weeks ago, I started drinking cappuccinos. So guess what? Yep, I’m addicted to them. What makes people addicted to things, or people? I went from my addiction with a certain person, not my husband, to Pepsi, to now cappuccinos. I’m struggling with this. Really, it’s not a big thing, but it still kind of frustrates me. Why can’t I just stop?

Sorry, that was a long tangent. I’m not sure if it even makes sense to the normal person. Ha-ha.

Anyway, I’m thinking that this verse could go along with my temptation. Well, actually I’m pretty sure it does! The problem I had with this verse is the last part, “He will also provide a way out.” What does that way out look like? Well, that night, all I would have had to do was to pick up the phone. But, the way I think is, “I don’t want to bother her.” Meaning, I didn’t want to call and interrupt my Best Friend, who has bent over backwards to help me in any way she can, and make this bad decision. The end result, I hurt people and I disappointed God.

Oh my! Hurting people is one thing, but disappointing God just hit me hard. I was always upset with myself for hurting people, until I just typed that out. I am now in tears. What have I done? Ok, deep breath. I disappointed God.

What you do when you disappoint people, you ask for forgiveness. Same thing for God. 

Dear Lord, please forgive me! I am so sorry, please help to show me the way out! In your blessed name I pray, Amen. 

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