GRACE


Grace 
God's
Righteous
Arms
Covering
Everything


What is Grace? What does it mean to be covered by God's grace? Do we earn it? Is it given freely? Can we rebuke it? Can we walk away? Why does He give it to us? Can we mess it up? Can God say, "No, more, you've messed up one too many times?" Does He give up on us? If so, when?

Well, I wanted to know exactly what the definition of Grace was, so I asked my pastor, he responded with,  "Grace is being given something that you don't deserve. You can't earn it." Then continued on saying Grace means something different to everyone. So I started looking through the bible for what Grace means, with no luck! Everything I came across was just using grace in a sentence.

Then I had another friend that said to imagine that the devil has chains on me that he is continually trying to pull. Each link in the chain represents something, and when it is broke that's grace. Grace being that God freed me from that "link of the chain."

I don't understand why I have continually had to keep pushing through the same struggles. I feel like it's a never ending battle. I feel bad for my good friends that try to help me, I'm sure they are extremely frustrated that I haven't progressed as much as they would like me to. Yesterday I had to fight with everything in me to not give into temptation. The bad thing was that it totally caught me by surprise. I wasn't expecting it, and I didn't put myself in it. I didn't give in, but I sure beat myself up over it. I wanted to be able to handle it all on my own. I feel like I need to handle it all on my own. I feel like a huge burden on others when I ask them to help me to deal with it. I couldn't turn to my husband, not in this situation. I feel like I've hurt him enough.

I wonder what God was thinking last night as I was trying to fight through? Do you think He wanted to give up on me? Heck, I wanted to give up on me. But God's grace allowed me to push through. (I think.) I prayed, HARD! I cried, a lot! But I overcome, last night anyways, in that situation anyways, but not without scars being touched again, and the hurt coming back again, the consequences of my actions.

Ephesians 2:8-9 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith and this is not from yourselves it is the gift from God. Not by works so that no one can boast.

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