A New Creation

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This verse has hit me hard today. The last two days have not been good. I let the devil win. I backslid big time. I went back to my old ways, and immediately blew something way out of proportion, instead of shaking it off, I let it ruin half my day. HALF MY DAY!!! After 10 pretty good days. What was I thinking? Oh yeah, I wasn't. Ugh. Okay, I can't dwell on it. I can see everything clearer today. 

While I was thinking of writing tonight this verse came to my head. 2 Corinthians 5:17 If anyone is in Christ, He is a New Creation. I have to rely on this verse. I can't let myself be pulled back in. Back into the turmoil that my life used to be. I'm not a stupid person, but I always feel like it when I look back onto a day like yesterday. Why I couldn't stop? I have NO clue. My Friends tried to stop me, but, I was too far gone at that point. Now, I have the residual effect of being disappointed in myself, along with just feeling drained. Emotional roller coasters are never good! I have to remember, I am a new creation, I need to act like it, I need to hold onto what I am now, not what I used to be. I've got to give control over to God. I've got to stop thinking I can do this all on my own. My marriage depends on it. 

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