I am a new Christian. I have many struggles that I am seeking to overcome, from my relationship with Christ to my marriage. I am using this blog to not only help me deal with and face some of my problems but also hopefully to help others!
Surrender.....................
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Why does this submitting to God have to be so hard?
Do you ever look back and think, Why? What was I thinking? How could I have done that? Well, today I was on a trip with a good friend and she said something and all of a sudden, something that my Pastor has been saying for a while finally clicked. (Sometimes it takes a while for that to happen, and sometimes I have to hear it a lot. This was a great example of that.) I realized that the person that I had cheated on my husband with was a manipulator. Now, don't get me wrong, I had a lot to do with the affair. But, our relationship lasted off and on for over 20 years. He knew me better then I knew myself. He knew how to get what he wanted and to make me feel good about it. The question is, why did I wait until now to see it. I have a husband that loves me, that would never manipulate me, especially after all we've been through over these last months. He has changed. He is a new creation. But why can't I open up to him? Why am I scared to? Why have I closed myself off to h...
Romans 12:1-2 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God - this is your true and proper worship. (2) Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be to test what God's will is - his good, pleasing, and perfect will. If I never thought that God was moving in my life, this is the week I have been proved WRONG. Last Sunday, I woke up knowing something was off. (That's the only way to explain it.) Things that I had been thinking about were really heavy on my heart. "Was I submitting to God? What do I need to do? Are you listening to Him?" I went through church hardly talking or looking at anyone for fear of breaking down emotionally.I went to the altar and wept, and wept, uncontrollably. I cried for Him to forgive me for not letting go, for not submitting to His will. Later, I come to find out, that was ...
What happens when you've had a fairly good week? The devil takes the time to pull you down. I am feeling it right now. I have this problem that once one thing goes wrong, everything seems to go wrong. My day started off extremely bad, I took the whole situation to heart, cried, prayed, and as much as I tried to enjoy the rest of my day, I felt like I was on the verge of tears all day. Then found out some news about my job, wasn't too happy with it, not devastated, but just disappointed, and I felt like I was slowly being pulled down. Then after school my youngest had to argue with me, yell at me, try to hit me, and that's when I lost it, the tears wouldn't stop. I would love to just wrap up in a blanket and sleep for days, but I know that's not what God wants. He wants me to live my life with joy. WITH JOY. Why is this such a hard concept for me?
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