Almost there...........

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Okay, out of the last two weeks, I've had more good days then bad days. I would say that's very good. My bad days, well, they were BAD days (limited to 3), but I'm holding out hope that they are getting few and far between. Peace is starting to reside in my heart and mind more and more......so exciting (for lack of better terms.) 

 I love the verse above. I've struggled for such a long time on living a "happy" life. I've had some good days, I've had some good times. I have found that this last couple weeks when I have Peace, joy and happiness will follow. My whole life I've struggled with this because there is constant battle going on inside of me at all times. I have always had some sort of struggle in my life, even before my marriage, it was the relationship I had with my parents, then the relationship that I had with a serious boyfriend, then on to my husband. Much to say, I'm not very good at relationships. I'm getting better and that's all I can ask of myself, but I worry that I'm always going to struggle with that. 

 I've had to really evaluate my marriage in this past few months, but more than that, I've had to evaluate myself, and how I look at things, and what I bring to our marriage. Sorry, I got a little off base there. 

 I can't wait for the day that I can be happy, that I can feel Joy and Peace consistently!!!!!!! 

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