Stand Your Ground!!!!!!!




Have you heard the song Stand in the Rain by Superchick? The lyrics describe me so much!!! Between this song and the sermon that I heard today my mind is going 100mph. The good thing is, it's not bad. I'm not struggling! I just feel like I'm building up my arsenal.

The chorus to the song:
Stand in the Rain
Stand your Ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown and 
One day what's lost can be found. 

This should be my new mantra. It's so easy to let the devil drag you down. It's so hard to see that he is doing this. Just when you think you are on the right track, BAM!! he's right there. Do you see it? Do I see it? Is it too late when I see it? I would have to say this last week, I wasted at least 4 days because I let the the devil win! I LET him win!!! It's so easy for me to see this after the fact. The good news though, I learned from it.

What did I learn? When things start to go downhill, at the very first thought, pray, read, write. I've got away from all of those for the past couple months. I still prayed, just not diligently. But I wasn't reading my bible, and I strayed from writing. Even after I had been told to. It was easy to let the devil win at that point. My life has been full of struggles and they are very normal to me. Being happy is not normal for me. It almost feels weird to be happy for a period of time. Right now I've had a few good days. I've been praying, reading, and today writing. 

So, back to the song and the sermon. Today, we heard about when Jesus calmed the waves after the disciples freaked out on him. (Matthew 8: 23-27) Jesus was sleeping, the disciples rushed to wake him, freaking out, scared of drowning. (How many times have a I been scared of this? Metaphorically speaking.) Jesus said in verse 26 "You of little faith, WHY are you so afraid?" This makes me wonder, why did I lose my faith? Why did I let the devil in? Why was I afraid? Why am I scared to be happy? Why did I NOT do what I KNOW I needed to do to stay on track, to STAND my GROUND!!?? 

Okay, now, moving forward, I'm not going to dwell on the "Whys?" I'm just going to move forward and be prepared to STAND MY GROUND. I've submitted fully to God. I have to rely on him before anyone else, including myself. He has to be number ONE! 













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