Feeling Thankful!!!

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Today was one of those days that I felt thankful for everything. I thought about going through and listing everything and everyone I'm thankful for, but that might get to be a pretty boring list to read. Haha. Then there's the fact I wouldn't ever want to hurt anyone's feelings by being left out, so that's not going to happen. But, how about I list my top 3?
Okay, my top 3 include; 
  • Jesus Christ
  • Family & Friends
  • Where I'm at today
Now, I thought I would explain each one.

Jesus Christ; Without Him I would not have been forgiven of my sin. This has been a huge struggle for me......I think it probably will always be a struggle. I have a horrible time at forgiving myself for what I have done to my husband and to my family. Christ and my family have forgiven me for my past, but it still haunts me and probably always will. I think that when you have done something so terribly wrong, you've broken a commandment, it will haunt you. 

Family & Friends; This includes my husband. The fact that he has forgiven me and we are trying to work things out says a lot about him. There has been so many times that I have wanted to just throw in the towel and give up, but he sticks those times out with me. I struggle still with knowing what to do in certain marital situations. I want our marriage to grow, I want to have a marriage centered around God. I want to be happy in my relationship with my husband and God. We will continue to strive to make our family the best in can be in God's eyes. We will continue to raise our kids to follow Jesus. This is going to take lots of learning, making mistakes, and learning from them, but it's all worth it, right? 
       Friends; I put family and friends together for one major reason, most of my friends are just as close or closer to me then the majority of my family. They know me better then my family does. I know that God placed my new friends in my life for a reason. I have been amazed at the timing of God and the relationships that he has put into my life. Right when I needed to confess to someone about what I had done in our marriage, He put one of the best people that I've ever known there for me to do exactly that. I am so thankful for those relationships that have helped me daily to live a better life and to follow God. 

Where I'm at today; I think this is very important, without my past I would not be where I'm at today. I would not be wanting more than anything to follow Christ. Yes, I still struggle, but I can only take one day at a time, one moment at a time and be thankful for it. My past is exactly that, my past. I have to let it go. I have to learn from it. 

So, that's where my mind was most of the day today. Now, I'm struggling. I don't know why........this is my life......sometimes an emotional roller coaster. I know it will get better, that I won't have the drastic valleys.....but for now I have to figure out how to deal with them....................... that's a blog for another time!














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