Addiction

Some people, including me, have an addictive personality. I take everything above and beyond. If I enjoy something, it consumes my life.

This is the definition of addiction according to Merriam Webster online;
: a strong and harmful need to regularly have something (such as a drug) or do something (such as gamble)
: an unusually great interest in something or a need to do or have something

So, knowing the definition is great, but how do you stop the need to fulfill your addiction. My addiction was the affair, emotional connection I had with someone that wasn't my spouse. I actually thought that I was getting closer to being over it, but got blind sided by it the other night. I put myself too close to where I knew he was going to be. I was so tempted to just go by and see him. I had had a bad day, and he was always able to pull me out of it. So, I kept thinking, just for a minute. Just one hug. Wow! What was I thinking?!?! This is just as bad as a cigarette, alcohol addiction, "Just one more, what will that hurt?" 

1 Peter 5:8 Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to DEVOUR.

"Be self-controlled and alert." That night I let my guard down. I let him in and was really close to letting the devil devour me. The alert part of that verse really got me. In other words, I am NEVER to put myself even close to that temptation. I feel like this is something I am always going to fight. I tend to forget that relationship was on again off again for over 20 years. It's going to be so hard to just let go.

I must change my focus, from my addiction to God. Romans 13:14 Rather clothe yourself with the Lord Jesus Christ and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh. 




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