Jealousy


Right now I have so many things running through my mind. In the middle of the night I had a few blogs that kept creeping into my head. So, now, I'm trying to figure out if I really want to blog about them all. The first one was jealousy. My whole life I have been a jealous, envious person. Now, this is in regards to a lots of different things. Most of being jealous in my life is when it comes to relationships. Jealous/Envious of those that have it better then I do. Parents that love and support them unconditionally. They can talk to them any time, they actually love them. This has been a hard area of my life to overcome. Then there's marriage relationships that I'm jealous of. The connection that some people have with their spouse. They can talk to them about anything, they are their other half. My marriage struggles have been huge lately, and it's hard for me to think that I might even have half of what others have.

Well, yesterday, it came to me............ jealousy takes away from thankfulness. If I keep being jealous of what others have, it takes away from how much I do have. I have a husband that is really working his butt of at trying to make our marriage what God intended it to be. I have four awesome kids, that I am going to raise better then I was raised, trying not to make the same mistakes. I have a sister that really cares how I am, and knows what it was like to be in our house growing up. I do have a dad that, even though we've had our struggles, will do just about anything for me. I have some a couple new friends that have helped me out so much during these last few months. I have a roof over my head, that even though we are always working on something, I can always come home.

I hate this part of my personality, I know this is an area that I must work on, that I must give over to God.

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